Come a long way, the hard way

And maybe I made it too hard

Been a long fight, the wrong kind

That breaks you and leaves you unsure

Been fighting to feel like myself

Not sure that's what I want anymore

Feeling like me is probably the problem

I've had all along

I tell everyone I got better

But what if I'm not?

It's hard to face the truth sometimes

It's hard to face the truth

Oh and I tell everyone it gets better

But what if I'm wrong?

It's hard to tell the truth sometimes

Am I always gonna just be, just be

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Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head

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Wondering if this is as good as it gets

Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by

Telling myself it's alright?

Does it matter how hard I try?

Am I always gonna just be, just be background sad

I got pages and pages

Of documentation I keep

Looking for answers

And patterns I've hidden in me

Don't need the world in my hands

Think I'd be happy with halfway content

I should grow up and shut up

I'm probably wanting too much

Oh and I tell everyone it gets better

But what if I'm wrong?

It's hard to tell the truth sometimes

Am I always gonna just be, just be

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Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head

Background sad, background sad

Wondering if this is as good as it gets

Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by

Telling myself it's alright?

Does it matter how hard I try?

Am I always gonna just be, just be background sad

Will I always be waiting?

And what is it I'm chasing?

These questions could drive someone crazy

I don't want to spend the rest of my life asking myself

Am I always gonna just be, just be

Background sad, background sad

Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head

Background sad, background sad

Wondering if this is as good as it gets

Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by

Telling myself it's alright?

Does it matter how hard I try?

Am I always gonna just be, just be background sad