Confused desires since my teenage years

I'm the same homo my family fears

For my blue eyed boy there's a long distance longing

My behind closed doors fantasies going on

And I feel wrong

Forgive me father for I have sinned

I must confess it's brothers with my eyes that I undress

Once a day I think about killing myself

I can't carry on I must be strong even though it hurts as I sing this song

That I feel wrong

And I feel wrong

God it's only love, it's only love

God how long will this go on?

God for how long will I feel wrong?

And I feel wrong

And I feel wrong

I feel wrong

And I feel wrong